“What is my motivation?”

Our mind will play tricks on us! When you are obese no matter how much weight you lose you still feel fat. Only time I don’t feel fat is after a good work out. Last night had a great workout and even had some cheering me as I was trying to do a reverse plank. It was my 1st time to do it and I felt great. I need to lose 100 lbs by the end of the season and I need to work more on my self steam I am having a hard time this season don’t feel like I am giving my best yet and I guess it scares me somewhat. But I do know I need to find the missing element to fire me up. And I can not seem to know what is wrong. What is it an actor will say? “What is my motivation?” I know it’s is hope and autumn but something is missing.